AHGURL (:

A change.

2011-04-12T21:22:00.004+08:00

I'm moved to

http://hiddenlanguages.blogspot.com/

See you there! <3

Opening of the Double Helix Bridge.

2010-04-24T13:15:00.014+08:00

I dont know about this event at all. Neither do I know about the awesome fireworks. Thanks Baby! It's so awesome!! (:

Baby, our love starts here!

What's does this starts for?

And this?

The awesome 2mins fireworks!! http://www.facebook.com/lummeizhen?ref=profile#!/video/video.php?v=433899901163&subj=581081163

In Loving Memory of Egan Supharta Mercubuwono

2010-04-19T22:00:00.003+08:00

In Loving Memory of Egan Supharta Mercubuwono

(25 September 1994 - 18 April 2010)

In Year 2007.

Year 2008.

The only two individual photos I've taken with him.

A young and talented boy. The first person I've known who first joined Band without knowing how to read any notes, always getting scolded because of that but yet he can play exactly what you had played after listening once or twice. I was so shocked plus surprised then, he's born a talent. It's a pity, really. To leave so young. But we all know, he's free from all the pains now. This half a year, he has always been strong and determined.

The Band loves you.
And everyone will miss you.
R.I.P.

Happy 7th month!

2010-04-09T13:05:00.027+08:00

Happy 7th month my dearest baby, love you as always.

On the 9th itself, went Bugis, walked around and all. Accompanied Baby to meet up with his NS friends for a birthday celebration.

On the 10th, went to John's Wedding buffet. After the wedding buffet, went Jurong Point&watched The Date Night. (:

Lovely dinner from Baby to me. :D

&On the 12th, Pepperlunch for lunch and Kbox with Baby after school. (:

P.S. Iloveyou...

Shanice's March holidays.

2010-03-19T20:01:00.041+08:00

Took a cab from Baby's house to head to Ehub. Our cab met an accident on the PIE. Awww. Shocked outta my life. Lucky Baby was there to hold on to me if not I would have fly off my seat. Fyi, both of us are not wearing any seatbelts. Waited for the cab driver to settle some stuff with the car drivers' infront then continued our journey to Ehub. Was there kinda late to meet my Sister and niece, Shanice. Spent a few hours in the arcade playing. HAHA. Sis drove Baby&I back to Baby's place after everything.

Thanks Baby for accompanying me though he just booked out from camp that day itself.
Loved.

Hi Shanice Koh!

Baby Baby Baby~

At the Arcade~

Awwws.

2010-03-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

Awwww, my Baby is so sweet right. Just because I accompanied him to IT Fair for 2days to get all the stuff that he always wanted. HEHE. My pleasure my dearest boy!! You had also accompanied me to many places that I wanted. Hugs~

Happy 6th month!

2010-03-09T19:31:00.038+08:00

Because Baby had something on on the 9th. We celebrated our 6th month on the 8th instead. Met Baby at City Hall, watched the show Dear John at Marina Square. After movie, we stroll around at Suntec and played a fool at Toy'r'us. HAHA.We had dinner at a cheap Korean place located at Suntec. Then back to Baby's house, spent the night there.

Dearest boy, thanks for being by my side all the while.
I know there are times which I disappoint you alot with my insensitiveness and all.
I'm sorry.
Believe me, I'll be a better girlfriend, just for you.
I love you.

The present I bought for Baby. (:

I'm glad you like them. :D

Nyp Alumni Lou Hei Event.

2010-02-27T16:33:00.015+08:00

Click on my Nuffnang Ads if you see any!

Thankyouverythemuch! :D

Our favourite pic. (:

Back to school on a Saturday for the Alumni Lou Hei Event. Everything was very messy seriously especially the registration(which is what I'm doing). Argh. After the event, went to meet Baby, ordered KFC for dinner. Yummy~

ASC~

Baby Dione.

2010-02-24T16:56:00.007+08:00

Met up with Erinna Lin after 2weeks not meeting. Aww. Met up with Xujun also at Bishan together with her Babygirl Dione! (:

CNY 2010.

2010-02-20T15:41:00.000+08:00

This year's New Year was definitely very different from previous years.
Besides having the first day of New Year being on the same day as Valentine's day, I went visiting with Baby and his family on the second and third day of New Year. (:

First day of CNY.

Went to my Dagu's house first then went to Ahkim's house in the evening. Baby gave me a shock outta my life by ordering Flowers and Balloon to be delivered to my Ahkim's place. So surprised, so shock, so happy!! HEHE.

Went over to Baby's Ahma's house around 8pm.

&&&&&&&my Valentine's day gift for my baby.

He loves it, I know. HEHE.

Second day of CNY.

Met Baby and his family at Sengkang area to go to his mother's side there to bainian. Around night time, went over to my Dayi's house where all my relatives are.

Third day of CNY.

Went to bainian with Baby's family again. Then we went Town to walkwalk after that and met his friends for mahjong.

Happy CNY and Happy Valentine's day once again!!

Days in CRMCC.

2010-02-12T14:49:00.043+08:00

Okae, my 9weeks full shift at CRMCC had come to an end on this very day(12th February).
Glad because there's no more 9am-530pm. But it kinda saddening as I do make good friends there! Miss Noh has been very good to us also. HAHA. Till today(2th March), I still miss the days there!

Lauren!!

Rishma, Miss Noh~

Tau Mei Yen.

Ending off with my favourite girls in NYP,

Must plusplusplus JOSEPHINE! =D

Happy 5th month!

2010-02-09T15:35:00.014+08:00

Though time was tight. But thanks for everything Baby. Love you~
Baby came to fetch me from school. Simple day out with Baby was great. (:

Love this accessories box so much!! HEHE.

Happy 19th Sharon!

2010-02-04T15:14:00.011+08:00

A simple celebration for Sharon at Essential Brew located at Holland V.
Hope she enjoyed herself and love our presents. (:

Love you always.

In memory of my beloved Godmum.

2010-01-26T23:54:00.034+08:00

On this very day, I lost someone I loved and respected most. Someone who was by my side since I was young. Someone who loves me like I'm her own daughter. Someone who is always there to listen to me. Someone who lends me her helping hands when I'm in need. Someone who taught me how to protect myself and not letting others bully me. Someone who I never wanna lose.

Now that she's gone. I know I have to go on. I know she wants to see me succeed one day. Though she cant be with me here to celebrate the joy but I know she's always there, always in my heart. I hope Mama is fine wherever she is. I promise I will take good care of myself. Thank you very very much for your love, care, guidance and concern all these years.

Godmum, I miss you so much.

CRMCC First Outing.

2010-01-17T21:07:00.001+08:00

11th January 2010.

Dinner with CRMCC at Parkmall Fish&Co.
Hope everyone enjoyed themselves! :D

Oh, I'm left with 4weeks of CRMCC.
Chinese New Year is coming~
I'm selling CNY goodies&Valentine's day gift till 21st January 2010.
Interested, do contact me! :D

Thoughts that counts.

2010-01-11T20:39:00.030+08:00

9th January marks our 4th month.

I didnt get anything for Baby.

But Baby bought me a bolster.
&he even gave a space in his cupboard.
So happy~ HEHE.
&Mahjong at night.

10th January went out with Baby&Baby's family.

Sunday is a Family day.

Love that. (:

("v")

Happy 2010!

2010-01-03T22:48:00.009+08:00

Hi Everyone! It's a new year once again. How's your new year so far!? I hope it had been great for everyone who is reading. Cause for myself, mine had been so far so good&I want it to be like that all the way! HAHA. Baby&I had a bad quarrel for the past one week. But we're good now or should I say GREAT? HAHA.

Like my Facebook status afew days ago, "Let bygones be bygones... A new year, a new start. (:"

So I bet life will be better from now on. HEHE.

But TEP just kill all my mood. Thinking that I have to wake up earlier than 7am every Monday to Friday for the next couple of weeks&ending at only 530pm everyday just dont make me happy at all. Boo.

____________________________________________________

On the very last day of 2009, 31st December.

After a half day at CRMCC, headed to Baby's place. Lunched then out around 6pm, meet up with Erinna, Gaofei, Kenny&Magdelene at Vivo. Dinner at Foodcourt. then chill at Arcade. Parted around 10plus. Countdown with Baby at Vivo, saw fireworks! HAHA.

1st January 2010, Friday.

Had dinner with Baby's family as Ahma's birthday is on the 2nd. After dinner, went City Square Mall to walkwalk then went East Coast Park with Baby to Beach Cavana. Meet up with Besties over there as it's also Peixuan's birthday on the 2nd! HAHA. Back to Baby's place around 2am. Played some games with Baby's cousins&sis.

Happy 20th my dearest Mummy~

2nd January, Saturday.

Woke up at 3plus or so. Prepare&all. Bus-ed to Great World City with Baby to meet Felicia&Baby's Auntie. Ate at Toast Work. Went Arcade then dinner at Ichiban. At night, played Risk again&mahjong lesson. LOL.

Today.

Woke up at 10plus, prepared&all. out with Baby's family. Went afew places then dinner-ed at Nan Hwa Chong Fish-head Steamboat again. Home after that.

Another 5more weeks of 9-530pm......

Awww...

Joy and pain.

2009-12-28T22:14:00.004+08:00

27th December 2009.

Passione IV at Victoria Concert Hall. Went with Baby, Meieng&Deyao.

They did a great job, as usual.

So proud of them! :D

My dearest section, always.

My Babes.

My Baby.

Then dinner with family at Nan Hwa Chong Fish-head Steamboat for my Dad's birthday on the 28th. Baby came along. (:

Baby&Niece.

28th December, Monday.

Congratulations to Xujun&Guanhong! Their bundle of joy arrived on this very day. Visited her at Thomson Medical Centre after school with Baby! I carried her baby name Dione! Omg, so cute!! HEHEHE. &when I carry her, she didnt cry at all but was sound asleep. Adorable~

After visiting Xujun, went Ttsh to visit my Godmum as well. Yes, after so long she's still in the hospital. But she is in normal ward now. God bless her. Loved.

Christmas 2009.

2009-12-26T21:44:00.007+08:00

I dont deny that this year's Christmas was a blast.

Despite everything being planned last minute but bet Baby&I enjoyed every minute of it.

On the 23rd, after a day at CRMCC. went Chinatown to meet Erinna. Then meet Baby's family for Ktv. Erinna didnt join us for the Ktv anyway. sing till 12am or so. Home.

Christmas Eve itself was out with Baby, Jo and Elmo in the afternoon for lunch at Ion's Hk Cafe. Then caught Alvin&the chipmunks2 at Cine in the evening. The movie was damn nice. The chipmunks are so adorable. HAHAH. After movie, parted with them. Baby&I headed to Baby's Ahma's house. It was Baby's cousin, Valerie's 21st. Then we had a gift exchange session! HEHE. After the gift exchange. Around 12am, cabbed to a Pub with Baby. Meet up with Jolin, Brenda&Nicholas over there. Home around 4am or so.

At Town.

At Ahma's house.

Bag for Valerie.

Gift from Baby's Auntie.

Gift from Baby's God-mummy.

At Pub,

Half a day of Christmas itself was spent sleeping. HAHA. Baby&I woke up only at 3plus4pm. Prepared&all. Went to buy Steamboat ingredients with Baby's family then back to Baby's Ahma place for Steamboat. After Steamboat was mahjong at Baby's place with Sis&Felicia.

Happy 100th day my love.

2009-12-20T21:32:00.006+08:00

17th December 2009 marks the 100th day of me and my babyboy.

He actually count the number of days!

&I wasnt aware of anything. (okae, I'm a bad Gf I know.)

Omg, am so touched.

Despite the both of us being unwell on this very day.

Dinner at Ps Manhattan Fish Market.

Then baby caught me a Hello kitty! Omg.

It's super the cute!!

Hi, my name is Shyshy~

&At the end of the day, I'm a happy little girl.

Thanks baby. Muacks~

20th December, Sunday.

Without any plans, we went Esplanade. &we happen to stroll along&saw people drawing on white balls! &it's free! So being a typical Singaporean, we queued for one&we even bought it home when we're not supposed to.

Happy 9th Shanice Koh!

2009-12-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

On 16th December 2009, my beloved Niece turned 9 years old! :D

Ate at Vivo's Dian Xiao Er then Partyworld.

Present from me&Baby.

Isaac's Wedding.

2009-12-15T22:37:00.005+08:00

On 13th December 2009, Congrats to Isaac&Kerryn!

Family Bbq.

2009-12-12T22:19:00.005+08:00

12th December, Saturday.

Bbq cum Family gathering at Meijie cousin's Condo. Enjoyed, love all of them!

Happy 3rd month!

2009-12-09T21:09:00.007+08:00

9th December, Wednesday.

Happy 3rd month baby.

I very much appreciate all the things you had done for me.

You know Aku loves you~ :D

Picnic&fly kite at Marina Barrage on this very day.

Baby planned everything in advance&prepared all the food all by himself.

Touched.

I enjoyed myself alot, thankyou love.

The familiarity.

2009-11-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

How's life people? Bet everyone's having different kind of life. Some might be so happy, and yet some the opposite. For me, I can only say everything's good. Though there might be things that put me down sometimes but at the end of the day, I'm still the happy me.

Godmum had been admitted to the hospital for 2weeks or so already. I'm worried, very. But I dont know how to express it neither do I know what can I do to help. Mayb that explains my bad attitude. But then again, I know there's no one to blame. Went hospital earlier on with Baby, &I'm feel so down now. No matter what, I just hope Godmum will get well soon. God bless you.

Baby&I have been good. Although we quarrel but I guess it's just something we have to go through. I'm glad you didnt give up despite all the unhappiness you have towards me. I'm sorry for all the unreasonable attitude I always give. You know at times I really dont mean it. Nonetheless, I'm really grateful that I have you. Loved.

Term break till 14th December. I so dont wanna school to start then. 9weeks of 9am-5pm. Awww~

Happy 18th to Janet.

2009-11-24T21:14:00.005+08:00

23rd November, Monday.

Happy 18th Janet Tau!

Went Sakura with Janet, Josephine&Tania. With their Frisbee people. Home around 11pm. Hope Janet enjoyed herself afterall it's her 18th birthday.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

Imy.

2009-11-21T20:28:00.003+08:00

15 November, Sunday.

Met up with Josephine&Elmo together with Baby at Orchard. Went Fareast, had lunch then shopped around there. Janet&Bryan joined us around 4pm or so. Went Cineleisure, check the pricing for Kbox&all. Went in around 6pm? Sharon&Tania joined us awhile later! Left around 10pm or so as Baby gonna book in that very night.

Just be there.

2009-11-15T18:06:00.007+08:00

13th November, Friday.

Met up Erinna at my house here then bus-ed to Bugis. Ferlyn joined us there! Had Pastamania. &we had a mini shopping day. HAHA. parted around 8plus with Ferlyn. Had a nice day catching up. :D

Many people asked me&Erinna if we're Sisters! HAHAHA.

Twinnytwinny~

Love Ferlynferlyn too! :D

Happy 2nd month.

2009-11-09T21:09:00.003+08:00

Happy 2nd month baby!

School till 5pm or so.

Met baby then went Marina Square, Lerk Thai for dinner. :D

Thanks for everything you've done for me these two months.

I've seen all the effort you had put in&I appreciate them alot!

Lovelove~ Big hugs~

有你真好。

2009-11-01T23:29:00.003+08:00

Escape with Baby today. Though the day didnt started off well, but it ended well I suppose. HEHE. I swear I was very scare okae. Boo. I dont dare to take most of the rides. HAHA. Nevertheless, I hope Baby enjoyed himself! He's going to have In-camp-training from tomorrow morning all the way till Saturday's afternoon. awwww.

I'll miss you baby, so you better miss me! HAHA.

Happy 1st month.

2009-10-20T21:23:00.006+08:00

9th October, Friday.

Light lunch, Full body massage, Yakun. :D

He's so adorable isnt he? HEHE.

Happy 19th.

2009-10-14T15:47:00.010+08:00

8th October, Thursday.

On this day itself was spent mostly with Baby. Book out from Chalet then went Baby's house to put stuff then to my place to put stuff&change. Then we headed Bugis for the large milk tea! HAHA. It's only valid on your birthday itself and you have to spend 30dollars and above. There's another bigger size but that's for 6persons and above. HAHA. After dinner, walked around and waited for Sis to come. Then we went Topone and sing till 4am or so. Supper and home. :D

I love my Babybaby. :D

19th Birthday Chalet. :D

2009-10-13T13:38:00.008+08:00

6th October, Tuesday.

Loved ones around me all know about this surprise and yet I'm kept in the dark. Baby planned a surprise Chalet for me, Erinna&Gaofei helped Baby with the preparations.

Family~

Baby~

The guys.

Besties.

Teresa and Twinny.

Teresa.

Cousin and Sis.

Evadne and Felicia. (:

Brenda and Nicholas.

Twinny~

Darlings~ Sharon, Janet and Josephine!

I look funny here.

Baby did this. :D

Thanks for everything everyone, I enjoyed myself! :D

Thought I felt so dumb after everything. HAHAHA.

Everything that I wanted.

2009-10-05T17:05:00.004+08:00

Birthday in 3days' time. Great or what. HAHA. No work practically for the whole week. Shiok eh. HAHA. &I woke up at like 3plus today. I'm a pig, I dont deny. HAHA.

Oh, &I'm pretty much a happy girl. Because Baby is always treating me like a princess. Trying his best to give me whatever I want. Though he always lied to me before all his planned surprises which often makes me want to box him. LOL. From sending dinner for me during work, waited for me till work end, buying durian mooncake for me this mooncake festival, wanting to fulfill each and everything that I said. I'm so loved. (:

Though sometimes I do stupid things that makes Baby angry but he still gives me the best of everything. :D

On 3rd October, was with Baby&Baby's family. drink tea, eat mooncake, take lantern! HAHA. Like kid, I know. But I loved&enjoyed.

Yummyyummy~ :D

On Sunday, out with Baby's family also. Went around to look at furnitures then dinner at IMM's Cafe Cartel.

Baby&his cousin, Alvin both had a combo for three.

Craziness.

It's been long.

2009-09-15T13:55:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone! How's life? Holidays have been so far so good. Though I wanted to work so badly but my body is so lazy. HAHA. I havent been blogging regularly nowadays yeah. Days were normal&everything. Havent been meeting up with friends much not even Erinna Lin as she is busy busy busy. HAHAHA. I need a date soon Twinny. Been spending most of my time with dearest whenever we are free&I love every moment of it. &a catch up with 2lovelies on Saturday was lovely, though the time was short but I feel great seeing them once again after so long, soon again, yes? HEHE.

Oh&yes, just in case you guys wonder, I'm currently attached. Life's been great. You guys could never understand how bliss I felt on 090909. It was so magical&I felt as though I was dreaming.

Anyway, anyone has got any weekdays jobs to intro? HAHA.

Ohyeah, went Sentosa with Baby&Niece on Sunday. Baby was of a great help I swear. He helped to tkcare of Shanice for the whole day as I wasnt feeling well the whole of Sunday. I hoped Shanice enjoyed herself as it was her first time going to the beach.

Baby is having In-camp-training now.

Misses~

But the great thing is that he will be more free after this week, which is oh-so-great. HEHE.

Ohyesyesyes, my birthday is coming in last than one month. It will be great if all dearest could be free to just gather together. Simple&nice. (:

Alright, Till then. :D

Loved.

2009-09-09T21:09:00.004+08:00

090909

GV Gold Class for Time Traveler's Wife.

Singapore Flyer for Sky Dining.

His Sister, Felicia's birthday chalet.

Gifts.

He planned everything.

Beautiful&Wonderful.

Thanks for everything baby.

Loved. :D

With you, baby.

2009-09-01T15:05:00.009+08:00

28th August, Friday.

Work as usual. Till 10pm, Mr Gene came to meet me then we bus-ed to Gillian's house for her birthday celebration. Long time since I last saw all the girls. Left around 1am?

29th August, Saturday.

HAPPY 19TH POM JI POM! :D

____________________________________________________

Weekends was spent with G, till Monday night.

&we had fun packing "me". LOL.

Stay close, dont go.

2009-08-21T20:58:00.005+08:00

Finally exams had come to an end. &I spent my first day of holidays at home. How cool uh but it feels good staying at home today after studying so many day.

Yesterday was the last day of exams. After the paper, went Town with classmates, caught the movie G.I. Joe. though I watched before with Gene the other day. The show is nice imo, should go catch it. (: After movie, went Ion for a walk then to Hongkong Cafe for dinner. back to Cine as we reserved a Kbox room at 7pm. Sing till 11pm. Enjoyed myself, so gonna have more singing seesions soon! HEHE. back home around 12plus.

We got too high while taking photos. LOL.

&I missed you...

Beautiful fireworks.

2009-08-13T14:28:00.009+08:00

7th August, Friday.

Celebrated Erinna's birthday one day in advance. Had a busy afternoon&ended up meeting her one hour later. HAHAHA. went over Erinna's housse before meeting her, Gene went over with me. we somehow decorated her room, without his, I will feel so lost seriously. After that, cabbed to Marina Square, I went to meet Erinna while Gene went home. walked around then went PS. meet up with Xujun and Teresa, had dinner at Thai Express. After everything, went over to Erinna's place. while on the way back, she keep asking why she doesnt have a cake. HAHAHA. Back to her place&that's when she had her surprise! HAHAHA.

Happy 19th Twinny~

She likes to copy me. LOL.

On bus to Town.

While waiting for Xujun,

They bully me. LOL.

At Thaiexpress,

Teresa&I ordered the same.

Birthday girl's.

She's disappointed then. HAHAHA.

Beautiful Mummy-to-be. :D

Love them.

At Erinna's house.

Birthday kiss for her~

Done by Gene. ((((((((((((:

My Artpiece. HAHAHA.

9th August, Sunday.

Went to watch Fireworks with Gene, beautiful fireworks, beautiful night. :D

Ecp.

2009-08-11T00:35:00.003+08:00

1st August, Saturday.

An impromptu idea of going to Ecp to cycle. met up with Mr G at my house area then bus-ed to Marine Parade to meet up with Erinna&Gaofei. had dinner at Marina Parade's Food court. After that to Ecp&we rent two 2-seaters bicycle for an hour. Had fun&enjoyed. More to come during the Holidays~ Count down~!

I know without you,
I wouldnt be who I am now.
(:

-

2009-08-01T00:10:00.005+08:00

31st July, Friday.

At work.

Jiajia~

It's been so long since I last camwhore. HAHAHA.

Using Jiajia's phone.

Happy 19th.

2009-07-28T19:46:00.006+08:00

24th July, Friday.

Happy 19th Teo Weekheng!
- 23rd July.

Work as usual for that day. Mr G was so nice to drop by&buy me cheesefries, milktea&Strepsils. Shocked okae, really shocked. :D After work, went to look for Weekheng&gang at Pasir Ris for his belated birthday Bbq. (: Hope he enjoyed himself&last long with his girl.

Stay Happy. :D

Have you ever.

2009-07-28T13:22:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDY4ErZOi9I

Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Back in your arms where I belong
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go

I really wanna hear you say that you know just how it feels
To have it all and let it slip away, can't you see
Even though the moment's gone, I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could change the way the world goes round

Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry (I'm sorry)
Can't you see, (ohhh) that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, (I should know) cos I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let
Yes I loved and lost the day I let you go

Webcamming.

2009-07-22T20:37:00.003+08:00

Had fun taking pics with darlings during the half an hour break. 100 over pics yeah. HAHAHAHA. Presentation at 8am this morning, Business Finance ICA next. Make-ups lectures all the way till 4pm. so worn out after that. Back home.

Sem Exams in less than one month's time,

First paper: 14th Aug, Business Law.

Second paper: 17th Aug, Business Accounting.

Third paper: 18th Aug, Business Finance.

Forth paper: 19th Aug, Cost Accounting.

Last paper: 20th Aug, Taxation.

All the best, Joanne. (:

Oh, if you're interested in our webcam pics, http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=131453&id=581081163&ref=mf

Actions speaks louder than words.

Happy 19th.

2009-07-19T13:47:00.010+08:00

My Dad is hospitalised for the past few days, getting much better. He will be discharge soon.

12th July, Sunday.

Happy 20th Brenda!

Sorry that I didnt turn up for your celebration!

13th July, Monday.

Happy 19th Lee Xujun!

After school, over to her house for Steamboat with my babes&their bfs. Have fun laughing&all~ :D

-pics are with her.

18th July, Saturday.

Happy 19th Teresa Teng!

-16th July

Hospital in the early afternoon together with my Sister to visit my Dad. Went Town with Sis around 2plus to meet her friend, Yuling. Walked around with them. Gene came to meet me around 3plus4pm. Went Paragon's Ding Tai Feng to eat. then walked aorund again, till 6plus, Yuling Jie went home. Sis drove us to Bugis. Walked around, bought a balloon&small cake for Teresa. Erinna reached around 8pm, walked around then went Iluma to look for Teresa as she ends work at 830pm. Gene posed as her primary school friend to trick her, but she was clever enough not to get cheated. HAHAHA. After that, we went Empire State for dinner. The food there was not bad imo. (: Home around 11plus.

The pretty babe who just turned 19!

The Happy girl before eating~

My Fish&Chips. :D

Gene&Erinna ordered the same dish, Fried Chicken Chop.

Birthday girl posing with her dish&drink.

Love ya babes, always.

A simple belated celebration but hope she enjoyed. (:

&Last long with R! :D

Memories.

2009-07-12T01:39:00.003+08:00

I know I'm good without you.
But why does it still hurts when the past was mentioned?

If I were a boy,
I would listen to her,
Cause I know how it hurts...

Does all good things come to an end?

I guess I'm too afraid that history will repeat itself.
&I'm too weak to handle the blow all over again.
May the next one be the last, I pray.
*Fingers crossed*

&Shar, we should study together more often! Love ya babyyyyyyy~ =X

Wedding.

2009-07-12T00:39:00.012+08:00

4th July, Saturday.

Congratulations to Xujun&Guan Hong!

The Beautiful Bride.

Sisters with the Bride.

Love ya darling~
All the best.

& So, the next one would be
.
.
.

Them! Yes!? HAHAHAHA.

An unforgettable&meaningful day yet worn out at the end of the day for everyone.

First day.

2009-07-06T21:23:00.002+08:00

First day of school.
Bad bad day.

Dragged myself outta bed at 7am or so.
Reached school at 9plus for project.
Rushed project till 11am.
While walking, sandals snapped.
So tired that I dozed off during lectures.
Got to know there's 2ICAs next Monday.

Awwww~ what a nice day to start off the first day of school.
Business Law presentation tomorrow&I've yet to start on my speech.
I'm not ready for school yetttttttttttttt,
Not to even mention for tests or exams.

Keep the faith going.

2009-07-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

Standing up again after you had fallen hard is difficult.
Trusting others again after someone you trusted so much betrayed your trust is even more difficult.

When you wanted to trust so badly again, you're so afraid that you will fall once more.
This is exactly how I feel now.
Assurances, can I have more of it?

What it takes, I dont care.
We're gonna make it.

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cause every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time.

H1N1.

2009-06-26T01:13:00.004+08:00

Bet everyone should knows that our holidays are extended by one week.
Good or Bad?
I dont know.
But I've seriously no mood for studies this sem, wthhhhh~
&seriously, I feel that the Nyp email thingy is so messy.
Elearning...

&&&Sharon Sim,
You know I'll always love you! (:

Wellwellwell, I feel that I have been so unhealthy nowadays. LOL.
I couldnt sleep until it's like really late.
&I cant wake up early at all.
My head just hurt so much sometimes.
Damn it.

20th June, Saturday.

Brought my Niece, Shanice&Erinna's Sister, Elisa to Tampines instead of Sentosa due to some communication problem between me&Erinna. HAHAH. Hope the kids had fun, especially at the playgrounds with me&Erinna wearing heels&playing with them. How clever can we be to actually be wearing heels while bringing the kids out. LOL. Brought my Niece home around 10pm, Clarke Quay to look for Gene&his siblings.

Lovely eh? HAHAHA.

25th June, Thursday.

Met up with Erinna at Compass, she was with Hongying. Afterwhich, went over to look for Xujun to get my dresses then to Erinna's house to chill. Home after that.

I look like a typical 15 years old kid. -.- LOL.

Anyway anyhow,

I hate people who ask others just to find out more about me.
If you're really so curious about me&what have I been doing.
DO ASK ME PERSONALLY, I would appreciate it very much.
Dont make me hate you even if you mean no harm.
Much appreciated.
Thankyou.

Nobody knows, I hide it inside.

Good old times.

2009-06-25T01:57:00.008+08:00

Caught TranformersII with Gene, his Mum&Brother.
It's very nice imo, do catch it! :D

Was chatting with Erinna Lin online&I asked her to send me some long ago photos.

Year 2005, Sec3.

Year 2006, Sec4.

Year 2007, Sec5.

Year 2008, Poly Year1.

Year 2009, Poly Year 2.

Did we changed much? HAHAHAHA.

We used to look so alike when we're in Sec4.

Omg, I cant laughing at myself.
Good old times, arent they? :D

&&&&&I miss this girl here badly,

Can you please fly back to Singapore!?

Loved,

Joanne.

有一种爱叫做放手.

2009-06-24T00:35:00.003+08:00

It's the date that makes me feels uncomfortable.
It reminds me of you&everything of you.
I hate myself for remembering.
I hate myself for being so fcukedup.
I know it's stupid being like that, but I cant help it.
Letting go of someone I loved once is never easy for me.
People who knows me well will know.
I struggled, I cried.
Suffocated is all I feel.

I know I'm not alone.
&I thank people who have been here all these while.
Been catching me whenever I fall.
Being there whenever I cried.

Joanne, you have been doing great.
Just a little bit of hard work more&you're there.
You will be the one who you used to be.
The one you longed to be.
You are not to take anyone for granted, remember?
Think of all the heartaches he created,
All the tears he made you cried,
He is not worth it, you know it better than anyone do.

Give me some time, I'll be really good.
I'll move on&start over anew.
&I hope you will be there for me in the end.

Forever my baby.

2009-06-18T12:10:00.003+08:00

13th June, Saturday.

Beloved Babe.
IT fair together with Gene, Nicholas, Kenny&Magdelene.
Chalet with the guys.
Gene's house for Monopoly.

17th June, Wednesday.

Chill at Sengkang together with Twinny&Junny.

Had a great laugh&great chat.

Simple instant dinner at Twinny's place.

Chill with Brenda in the night.

Babygirl, I love you.
&I'll always do. :D

Dose of happiness.

2009-06-16T01:04:00.005+08:00

15th June, Monday.

Sentosa with AA-ians. Nice day, nice weather. &I had fun playing frisbee! HAHAH.

But, I'm still sooooooooooo fair. LOL.

Hi people, I've been great so far.
Life goes on,

Joanne, stay strong. (:

Happy 21st.

2009-06-09T02:43:00.004+08:00

Happy 21st Mr Gene!

Hope you enjoyed your celebration&had a great time.

Goodnight people.

Quiz.

2009-06-08T01:51:00.001+08:00

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.

You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive - perhaps it does not even exist.

Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

Here without you.

2009-06-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

过去让它过去

来不及从头喜欢你

如果不能够永远都在一起

也至少给我们怀念的勇气拥抱的权利

好让你明白我心动的痕迹

It's at times like that, I miss you so much.

I wanted to tell you so much that "hey boy, I missed you."

I wanted you to know so badly that I'm still here.

I wanted so much to hear you call my name once again.

But then again, I know I've got to move on.

ICAs are all coming to an end.

Last paper on 8th June.

Term break from 12th-28th.

Jap conversational test this Thursday.

So dead. hahahah.

Nothing much.

Internet is back, I'll update more often I promise.

This month's 24th marks the 1st Anniversary.

Better off.

2009-05-25T21:53:00.006+08:00

30th April 2009.

One fine day at Town with Jolin&Brenda.

Hey, 我真的好想你.

2009-05-16T00:08:00.006+08:00

DO CLICK ON MY ADS! THANKSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Hi people, how's life?
Great, I suppose.
For me, like I said.
School&work.
&am currently sick which had already been with me for a week or so.
Sore throat, flu bug, on&off headache/dizziness.

Mood havent been great.
Even the slightest thing irritate the shit out of me.
I'm sorry to friends who had to bear with it.
Especially to Erinna Lin, I know my attitude had been really bad nowadays.
My sincere apologises.

School,
Everything seems so foreign to me.
Especially Jap, it's killing all my brain cells. Lols.
8 modules this sem, how to cope?
Seriously, I do hope I can survive through.

Work,
Everything is fine.
At least there's something to keep me busy.

Well, I know many are curious about my personal life.
All I want to say is mind your own business.
Because I dont think it concern you at all.
If you're being concern, I appreciate.
But you're just being a busybody, then just fcukoff.

To be honest, the breakup is still bothering me.
It's the cause of my terrible moodswings as well.
Yes, laugh at me if you want.
I admit that I'm weak.
That's because you dont know how much effort I put in,
How much I wanted this to last,
How much I loved,
How much I gave,
&how much I sacrificed.

Some around me knew how much effort I put in,
Sometimes I wonder, why didnt you know too.

During nights like that,
I yearn for your warmth.
Just a simple caring sentence, it's enough.
But you never did.

Sometimes I just hope I can still rely on you.
Even if it's just as a friend.
But I couldnt find the courage to approach.
Because I'm too afraid of your cold reaction you always gave.
I really miss you, my dear friend.

Everywhere I go, everything I do,
Reminds me of you.
How happy I used to be.
I smiled with tears welled up in my eyes.
Memories with you were sweet yet,
Bitter.

Till then, update soon.

Happy 19th.

2009-05-15T16:51:00.006+08:00

14th May 2009.

Happy 19th to Jolin Lek & Jose Tan.

The couple.

Birthday girl& Birthday boy.

Hurt so bad.

2009-05-04T22:54:00.002+08:00

哭了才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说你永远是我的
为了爱情我把自己的幸福都忘了
你快乐我就快乐

也许是我们彼此都太年轻了
就是特别容易沉溺在爱情里
每当我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我我还是想对你说

baby i love you so much
你走了我的心在淌血
baby you hurt me so bad
想要你回到我的世界
baby i love you so much
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
baby you hurt me so bad
只要我们都爱着无论多苦都值得
说好的你怎么麽忘记了

Replaying over&over again.
I'm missing you tonight.
My life is all about school&work.
Friends are there but it just doesnt seem right.
I dont feel good.
Mask, I'm wearing everyday.
Ily.

Baby, you hurt me so bad.

2009-05-02T14:35:00.004+08:00

20th April, Monday.

Out with Jolin&Brenda to Town. Cant remember what had we done that day.

24th April, Friday.

10th Month.

Out with him, Jolin, Peixuan, Jose, Brenda&Nicholas at Chinatown Ktv till 1plus. home around 3plus.

26th April, Sunday.

Work with Teresa. :D

I walk alone.

2009-04-27T21:39:00.002+08:00

School officially commence for me.
I'm Year 2 now. Omg.

Timetable was not bad for this Sem.

Monday, 12pm - 6pm.
Tuesday, 2pm - 6pm.
Wednesday, 8am - 3pm.
Thursday, 1pm - 6pm.

Friday, Saturday&Sunday no school! HAHA.
But I'm gonna work throughout the weekends.
To earn&to keep myself busy at the same time.

&To everyone,
Be nice&dont ask about me&him.

I'm just not used to it.
10 months wasnt long but it wasnt short either.
I need time to adapt.
It's never easy, for me.

I wanted to smile at you, but I've got no courage.
I wanted to speak to you, but I'm not ready.

I wanted to cry so badly, but I know I cant.

All I can do now is to fake a smile infront of everyone everyday.
Deep inside, I just want to cry.

It's no longer us.

2009-04-23T02:25:00.006+08:00

240608.

Everything started off so perfectly.
That hug&that kiss, I thought it would last.
My everyday was then filled with your love&care.
Your warming hugs, your passionate kiss whenever we part.
Your charming smile that never fails to brighten up my day.
Your sillyness that makes me love you more.
Those late night calls till we're both tired even there's school the next day.
You sending me home every time no matter how late it was just to ensure that I'm safe.
You telling me that you miss me&never wanted to lose me.
You asking me out everyday even just for a lunch or dinner.
From then, I thought I will never be alone.
Because you said, I'll always have you.
Everything's just so fine having you around.

You're the first guy I wanted the whole world to know about.
You're the first guy who ever stayed over at my house.
You're the first guy who made me stayed up whole night just to make sure you reach home safe&sound.
You're the first guy who made me cabbed out in the middle of the night.
You're the first guy I'm willing to get up early just to get you breakfast.
You're the first guy I dont mind travelling far just to see you for alittle while.
.
.
.

I will always remember,
The day when I was sick, you dropped by just to get lunch&medicine for me.
The day you were so weak yet you came to meet me simply because you wanted me to be happy.
Those days you bring me to have cheesecakes because you know I love them.
Those days you bring me to have Gelare's ice cream whenever I yearn for it.
Those days we both cant bear to part though it's already past midnight.
Those days you picking me up from work at Expo.
Those days you accompanying me wherever I want to go.
The birthday cake you asked Erinna to get on behalf for you before you left for Switzerland.
Those songs you played for me on our Anniversary&whenever I wanted you to.

&The list goes on...

You loved me so much, back then.

Dearest,

I know I'm never good at words, but
I really appreciate everything you had done for me.
I will never forget all these time spent with you.
I never wanted to part but I tried my best.
I may not be the best girlfriend,
But I swear you had been great.
May your next one be the one you've been looking for.

I dont know if you will ever read this.
But if you do, thanks your parents for me.
They are really nice.

I may seems unsatisfied at times,
Because I know,
You can be better.
But you chose not to.

I kept everything to myself,
&cried myself to bed every night missing you these months.
It's a pain hoping someone to call when you know they wont.
I guess I said everything I could, done whatever I can.
But you're never satisfied.
Relationship never comes easy to me.
But baby, I'm still letting you go.

Love is blind,
Yes, so true.

Nevertheless, I'm proud having you as my boyfriend.
I hope you too.

Goodnight Meizhen,
Sweet dreams.

Thought that we were stronger.

2009-04-19T13:29:00.006+08:00

16th April, Thursday.
Twinny came over my place with lunch for me! HAHA. after eating, prepared&stuff. bus-ed to Bugis as the Bitch wanted to get a bag. The new shopping centre Iluma, was such a disappointment. HAHAH. stayed at Bugis till around 630pm, bus-ed to Kovan. saw Hweehan on the bus as we are going Kovan for dinner together. met up with Karmen&Xujun at Kovan&dinner-ed at Pizza Hut. been a long time we last had such a gathering as the girls are oh-so-busy with their new life. HAHA. after dinner was chilling at Mac, chatting etc. short but enjoyable night with them. home around 11plus.

Pizza Hut.

All of us ate this. LOL.

Not very nice though.

17th April, Friday.

Met up with Janet at Bugis around 4pm, she accompanied me for a job interview&I managed to get her the job as well. after walking around Bugis for awhile, we headed Funan&waited for Bf to end his guitar at 6pm. dinner-ed at Funan's Foodcourt. after eating, went Central to walkwalk. Janet left around 8pm to Compass to meet her friends. while Bf&I went PS, caught the movie 17 Again at 920pm. the movie is nice! funny yet touching! HAHA. after movie was already going 12am therefore headed home. (:

I love days like that, simple but sweet.
Ily.

18th April, Saturday.
Erinna Lin came over my place around 6pm or so. helped her to paint her nails, then we headed Marine Parade&get cake then bus-ed to Aljunied to celebrate Hweehan's 20th. she ended work around 9plus10plus, Karmen, Xujun&their Bfs were there too. after the short celebration, headed Geylang with Erinna, Karmen&Darren for dinner/supper then home after that.

Xujun&Guan Hong.

Karmen&Darren.

Happy 20th!

I miss Nanny Ng.

I hate this part right here.

2009-04-18T01:17:00.011+08:00

9th April, spent with my dearest boy. supposed to catch a 3pm show at Cine but my beloved boy was having stomachache that very morning therefore it was delayed till 5pm. caught L.O.V.E. not very nice mayb cause we missed the first part of the show because of some reasons. after movie, went PS, had dinner with Bf's parents at Swensens. after dinner, Bf accompanied me home then cabbed over to Meieng's house as Bf is in a rush to meet his friends after sending me over to my Dayi's house. so yeah, spent the night there.

I love him, as always. :D

10th April-12th April. Genting Trip with relatives&cousins.

Day 1.
woke up at 530am, when I only slept at like 3am after a call with Bf. well, prepared&stuff. Xiaojiu came to fetch us around 630am. &our trip started off then. this time the trip took much more time as compared to the previous time I went with my family.

Reached Genting at around 4plus in the afternoon. the moment I step into the hotel basement, I heard someone calling my name, I turned&saw dearest Huimin! AHAHAHA. chatted awhile then booked in to the hotel, washed up&rest awhile then went for dinner. dinner-ed at a Chinese Restaurant there. after dinner, walked around, Arcade for awhile then around 9pm, went for back massage! HAHA. first time, nice experience though but Meieng was complaining about how pain it was after that. HAHA. after massage, the adults went Casino while me&Meieng went around exploring the place by ourselves. then we ended up in a Pub, Cloud9. HAHA. I swear we looked like some idiot inside. LOL. then back to the hotel at 12plus1am or so. bumped into Rina&her Bf on the way back to hotel. so coincidental.

Moto-si-kal.

Dinner time.

Meijie cousin with her Bf, Raymond korkor.

Raymond korkor's Sister&her husband.

Dayi, Yizhang, Xiaojiu.

Massage time.

Cloud9.

Day 2.
Woke up at 8plusam. bath, prepared etc, headed for breakfast. after breakfast, went to play Pool&Bowling. LOL. afterwhich, went for lunch then caught a movie, Shinjuko Incident. I hope I spelled it correctly. LOL. after the movie, went for a walk at a Thai night market outside the building. then the adults went Casino again then me&Meieng went strolling around. met up with the adults at 8pm or so for dinner. then had some shopping done that night. &I cant wait to come back to Singapore, I miss baby. HAHA.

Hotel's Breakfast.

Pool&Bowling.

With the clowns. LOL.

In the Cinema.

At the Thai market.

Ewww~

Day 3.
Woke up also around 8am. bath, prepared etc. breakfast at Ah Yi Bao Yu for dimsum! my Fav. HAHA. after breakfast, some last minute shopping, back to the hotel room&off we go, back to Singapore. I had a nice chat with Nanny over the phone on the trip back. HAHA. reached Singapore around 4plus, lunched at Yishun then home. Brenda, Jolin&Nicholas came to meet me later in the night.

What a adorable baby. HAHA.

Looney tunes.

Dimsum Breakfast.

This looks like eggs, doesnt it? HAHA.

On the way back.

Awww, finally.
Update again soon.

I want nobody nobody but you.

2009-04-14T23:40:00.004+08:00

7th April, Tuesday.
Met up with Huimin around 4pm, caught The Unborn, 5pm at Cine Leisure. scary but still okae, at some part, Huimin was the one who scared the hell out of me. LOL. after movie, walked around, bought Sushi, sat outside Taka, eat&chat. Andre came to meet us, chatted then home around 12plus.

Dearest Huimin. (:

Pic of the day!

Classic. HAHAHA.

8th April, Wednesday.
Met up with Huimin&Andre then bus-ed to Marine Parade to meet up with Erinna&Jasline. the weather was good. HAHA. went East Coast to cycle&roller blade. till around 8pm. then to Marine Parade for dinner at Food court. went over to Erinna's place to get some stuff&home after that.

Didnt take photos with the rest. But I had fun with them! :D

Love is so magical.

2009-04-06T00:16:00.004+08:00

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy..

I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.Dew came into my life. It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife.

When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her.

At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.

This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious. When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.

But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question.

This so-called answer made her angry..

She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day.

But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce.

From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically. I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully.

Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.

Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms.

She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.

The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.

The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out.

He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway.

Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs.Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old.So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

When a girl loves you, they want nothing else but you.
Treasure her before it's too late.
It's coming to an end soon. ):

Meieng's 19th.

2009-04-05T16:41:00.009+08:00

Anyway, I caught 2movies recently, Coming Soon with Bf on 25th March, scary like shit. LOL.
&went Clubbing that night for the first time with Jolin, Brenda&3 of her friends. Bf went with his friends. well, I dont like it. LOL. I dont know how to explain but I still prefer pubs/ktvs.

Then Confession of a Shopholic on 31st March with Bf, Jolin, Brenda&Nicholas. Not bad lah, but I personally would prefer Bridewars. (:

3rd April, Friday.

Happy 19th to my dearest Cousin!

Met up with Meieng on train, headed to City Hall, meet up with Jasline&Jolin. walk around Marina Square etc. Bf meet up with us after his guitar. dinner at Pizza Hut. walked around, had Erinna&Gaofei to bring the cake over for us without Meieng knowing anything. she was shocked upon seeing Erinna&Gaofei&ofcourse the birthday cake.

After cake-cutting, went to play pool then to Esplanade for a bite. bus-ed home after that.

Hope Meieng enjoyed herself.

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Meieng,
Happy Birthday to you! :D

Js will love you forever. ((((((:

Ahem, Erinna Lin, what you drinking uh!? LOL.
(Fyi, It's just Ribena.)

How to not love him. (:

At Pool,

Birthday girl with Jasline Yeo, Jolin Lek.

With me, then Erinna Lin.

Skinny pig. &Laofei wasnt happy with me on that day. LOL.

If only, this will never end, I will be more than grateful.

Big hugs everyone.
I'm going Genting with my relatives this coming weekend.
Miss me, yes? :D

Speech day' 09, Alumni's Bbq.

2009-04-04T15:36:00.003+08:00

27th March, Friday.

Back to Yuying for 99th Speech day. nice catchups with classmates/friends. Especially Ferlyn, remember to date me out soon. I'm so gonna tell you everything. HAHA.

Some time since I last saw Xiangyu&now he became a photographer? LOL.
though not many 5A peeps came back but still, enjoyable day.

Had a chat with Miss Liza along with some peeps, it's always great/fun talking about our "ugly" past. HAHA. memories that will last you a life time.

Ohyeah, Miss Liza is getting married next year. :D

While waiting for the ceremony to start.
Outside the Bookshop. LOL.

Joopeng, what's so fascinating about Jasline's fan? LOL.

Jasline, Xiangyu, Jasper, Joopeng, Me, Ahben, Meishan.
Some not in pics.

Lee Xihong. he wanted to take photo with me. LOL.

Dinner at Kfc with most of them.
Town with the guys then home after that.
Xihong send me home, Thanks!

28th March, Saturday.

Bbq at Junshen's house.
Awesome, I should say.
Seeing all the Alumni together.
Really miss those day when we're still in Yuying Concert Band. HAHA.

Alumni Flute section. NIP: Cheryl, Veronica, Jane.

:D

Sorry if I shock you. HAHAHAH.

Bridget's Father send me home after everything. Thanks yo!

Happy 22nd Mummy.

2009-03-29T14:32:00.005+08:00

22nd March, Sunday.

Flautists gathering cum celebration for Jazsica's 22nd Birthday.

Woke up at 5plusam, went sao mu with my family, ate then back home around 11plusam, bathed&went out again.

Meet up with the babes at Topone, Jasline, Siyan, Jazsica&Serying were there since 11am. had a simple surprise for our Mummy, Jezsica! Yanming reached, Vanessa&Siyan went to buy a mini cake with a Hello Kitty Balloon(why not for me!?) LOL. &yeah, hope Mummy enjoyed herself. Singing was so great everytime. Veronica joined us after the short celebration.

The Balloon&Cake for Mummy! :D

From left to right, Veronica, Serying, Jasline, Siyan, Jazsica, Meizhen, Vanessa, Yanming.
Loveloved. :D

Left Topone at 6pm or so, Siyan&Yanming left early, so the rest of us were suggesting on where to go for dinner&so we ended up at Suntec, had Korean Food for dinner, nice&affordable. :D afterwhich, chilled at TCC, talking about our childhood life. LOL. &we laughed like some crazy women, left around 9plus10pm, bus-ed home&I was totally drained out.

Nevertheless, I enjoyed my day with my darlings though I only had 2hours of sleep.

P.S. I feel like a loser, I miss you so much...

You left me here with nothing at all.

2009-03-21T14:11:00.004+08:00

I thought I could forget all these including you.
Chilling out with Girlfriends almost everyday.
That's what all girls longed for, freedom.
But why am I not happy at all?
I smiled, I laughed, but am I really feeling that way?

Girlfriends are all troubled with their own problems,
I dont want to make anyone of them to worry for me.
I pretend to be strong, pretending to be much stronger than them.
They broke down&cry at times.
I could only control my own tears&comfort them instead.
I wish to be like them, breaking down&let out everything.
But I hate to answer those heart-aching questions.
I could only cry myself to bed every night missing you,
So much, so much...

I thought I'm strong enough to overcome everything.
But I realised I'm not.
No matter where am I or what I do,
You're always on my mind.
I need you like you're my oxygen.
But baby, I cant feel you.

3 more days&it marks the 9th.
Will miracle happen?
I love you darling boy.
Forgive me, my weaknesses.

I dont want this to ever end, do you understand?

I only want you.

But do you still remember what we once had?

P.S. I need your love tonight...

I'm down with flu. damn.

Sincere apologies.

2009-03-12T22:11:00.004+08:00

This post goes out to Sec1E, 2E, 3E, 4E, 5As' peeps.
I'm sorry for organising this gathering yet not turning up at the very last minute.
Hope you guys will understand.
Anyhow, I hope those who went, had enjoyed yourselves.
See you guys soon!
Probably Speech day!?

Ohyeah, apologies to Miss Liza too.
I'm the one who asked you for free time yet being the one unable to make it.
Awwwwwwwwwww~ I feel so irresponsible now.

I'm really very sorry people!

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P.S. Readers, do do the poll at the side! Million thanks! :D Tag me as well! (:

Another sleepless night.

2009-03-08T15:04:00.002+08:00

Havent been sleeping well these few days.
I guess I'm falling sick soon.

Helpless, I feel.
Very helpless.

Memories are so much, so deep.
Why does remembering everything hurt so much now?
I miss you babyboy, do you?
I love you babyboy, do you?

I need to see some effort.
I need some miracle.

Meizhen, stop crying...

The type of woman.

2009-03-02T18:53:00.004+08:00

I did a quiz on Facebook.
This is the answer I got&I think it's kinda accurate.

Lovely Lady

You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare!

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You're still the one.

2009-03-02T02:11:00.004+08:00

Congrats to Ivy Jie & her husband, Roger.
The bride was extremely gorgeous today!
Woohoo~ bet every girl is looking forward to the day they put on the bridal gowns.
It's the day that the girl will look their best.
I know my Twinny cant wait to get married right? hahahah.
Gaofei will propose to you soon in years to come, no worries yeah. LOL.
&&&&&&&&&&I want to be your bridesmaid yeah! hahahahah.

Kinda crazy.
But well, I give Ivy Jie&her husband all my blessings. :D

The wedding ceremony was great.
Food was great.
Oh, the dinner was held at Boon Lay Raja Restaurant.
Went there with my parents.
But it was raining heavily&many was late.
Therefore dinner only start at around 8plus9pm.
Home around 12am.
&I'm still bright awake now. =.=

I need a job!!!!!!!!!!
Any intro!?
Do let me know yeah. :D

Anyone free to accompany go out?
=X

Oh&anyway, I want to get a new hairstyle before school reopen!
But I need a job first in order to do so. ))))))))))):

I'm so bored, any kind soul care to entertain me!? :D

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You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

I love you, Babyboy.
Always.

Life's like that.

2009-02-28T01:29:00.008+08:00

Life has been pretty boring.Nothing special.

Exams are over, holidays are here.

But I dont feel the holiday mood at all.

Something, somehow just seems missing.

There are some things that I still prefer to keep them to myself.

Alright, gonna upload some pics taken for the past few days/weeks/month.

First day of CNY at Erinna's house.

At Bugis on 20th February.

23rd February, After AFA paper with classmates.

27th February, with Girlfriends.
Marina Square, Suntec, Cine.

Met up with Xihong&group at Cine then had a drink at Coffee Bean.
home after that.

Ahben, Xihong, Shannon, Weekheng.

The pic of the week!

LOLS.

It's at time like this that I couldnt hold on anymore.

Stupid or dumb.

2009-02-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

I realised all girls or rather most of the girls I know.
Tend to find excuses for their guy even if they know it isnt benefitting them in anyway.
Dumb or what!?
Or are we just trying to "tell" ourselves that they're just busy, they do love us though they dont say, they will call/message us soon, etc.
What's the point of giving chances after chances when nothing is gonna change?
What's the point of telling them how you feel when they dont even give a damn?
Asking for too much, are we?
Or are you just simply not trying to compromise?
It's tiring going on like this.
But it's because we love&we're hoping things will turn out for the better.
Well again, stupid or what!?

We just want to feel that we're loved&cared by that significant someone.
We just want to be treated the way we're supposed to be.

I guess,
I had done my best, the rest is up to you.

Ever so first valentine.

2009-02-16T23:10:00.004+08:00

Highlight for the week, Valentine's day.
Ohwell, Belated Valentine to every single soul.
Bet everyone enjoyed their day.
Especially some of my gfs.

Specially made a card for Bf, hopes he will like it.
I got Perlini's Silver's(fav!) earrings from Erinna as Valentine's day present.
Thanks babe, love you big time.

Dinner with Bf at Marina Square, LerkThai.
Food was good, everything seems great.

That's all, Exams now.
1 down, 3 more to go!
All the best AA!
1more week&I'm free!

Till then.

Stay close, dont go.

2009-02-08T16:52:00.011+08:00

Hi everyone, how's life?

Mine has been so far so good.

I'm learning to love each&every day.

I hate insecurities, really. Damn.

4th February, Wednesday.

meet up with Bf at Bugis at around 1plus. went Topone to sing, my Sister&Niece joined us around 3plus. sing till 6pm. had dinner together at Pastamania. after dinner, walked around Bugis Junction. around 9pm, cabbed to Sister's place. Bf was with us too. watched some Tv programmes then played poker. waited for Brother-in-law to reach home then supper at Sister's house downstairs. Brother-in-law drove Bf home first then drove me home. :D

("v")

6th February, Friday.

meet up with Josephine&Sharon at City Hall, then went to look for Eugene&Yeocheng. they were taking photos at a Church. then the 3of us went to grab a bite from Chippy while waiting for the guys to be done. went National Library&Haji Lane to get some photos taken as well. then went into a cafe(?) Pluck for some desserts. after desserts, cabbed down separately with the guys to Holland V, meet up with Bf, Alex there as well. dinner-ed at Essential Brew. dinner was great with never ending laughters. hahahah. after dinner, headed Town for Kbox with Bf, Alex&Yeocheng. home around 3am or so.

Fringe right,

Or left? hahahah.

7th February, Saturday.

over to Ahkim's house around 6plus. had dinner nearby my Ahkim's house together with my relatives&cousins. after dinner around 8plus9pm, back to Ahkim's house. blackjack-ed. Bf came over as well, he keep winning okae&he owe my family members a treat. LOLS. home around 1am or so. (:

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What if one day, I'm gone.
What if one day, we dont love each other anymore.
What if one day, we cant see each other anymore.
What if one day, we cant smile&laugh together anymore.
What if one day, we are no longer listed as lovers.
What if one day, we dont need each other anymore.
What if one day, we are sick of each other.
What if one day, we cant be bothered to put in anymore effort.
What if one day, we are too tired to do anything to salvage what we have.

What if,

What if...

I cherish whatever I have, especially you.

Because to me, love is hard to come by.

I love you, baby.
I dont want to live a day without you. (:

AHGURL (:

A change.

Opening of the Double Helix Bridge.

In Loving Memory of Egan Supharta Mercubuwono

In Loving Memory of Egan Supharta Mercubuwono (25 September 1994 - 18 April 2010)

Happy 7th month!

Shanice's March holidays.

Awwws.

Happy 6th month!

Nyp Alumni Lou Hei Event.

Baby Dione.

CNY 2010.

Days in CRMCC.

Happy 5th month!

Happy 19th Sharon!

In memory of my beloved Godmum.

CRMCC First Outing.

Thoughts that counts.

Happy 2010!

Joy and pain.

Christmas 2009.

Happy 100th day my love.

Happy 9th Shanice Koh!

Isaac's Wedding.

Family Bbq.

Happy 3rd month!

The familiarity.

Happy 18th to Janet.

Imy.

Just be there.

Happy 2nd month.

有你真好。

Happy 1st month.

Happy 19th.

19th Birthday Chalet. :D

Everything that I wanted.

It's been long.

Loved.

With you, baby.

Stay close, dont go.

Beautiful fireworks.

Ecp.

-

Happy 19th.

Have you ever.

Webcamming.

Happy 19th.

Memories.

Wedding.

First day.

Keep the faith going.

H1N1.

Good old times.

有一种爱叫做放手.

Forever my baby.

Dose of happiness.

Happy 21st.

Quiz.

Here without you.

Better off.

Hey, 我真的好想你.

Happy 19th.

Hurt so bad.

Baby, you hurt me so bad.

I walk alone.

It's no longer us.

Thought that we were stronger.

I hate this part right here.

I want nobody nobody but you.

Love is so magical.

Meieng's 19th.

Speech day' 09, Alumni's Bbq.

Happy 22nd Mummy.

You left me here with nothing at all.

Sincere apologies.

Another sleepless night.

The type of woman.

You're still the one.

Life's like that.

Stupid or dumb.

In Loving Memory of Egan Supharta Mercubuwono

(25 September 1994 - 18 April 2010)